Showing posts with label anxiety. Show all posts
Showing posts with label anxiety. Show all posts

Sunday, August 4, 2013

Talk About Something Uncomfortable…



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So if you’ve read my blog at all you know that there are certain things that terrify me… new people and using the phone are two of the biggest. The main reason why I started the Something Uncomfortable journey was to get over some of my paralyzing fears so I can live life to the fullest.

God has used many unexpected things to help me tackle my fears over the last 17 months. I think it’s safe to say that I never thought He would use pretty bags to work on my character.

Near the end of the school year, a mom (Kat) did a Thirty-One fundraiser at my son’s school. I LOVE their products and jumped all over the opportunity to have a party without having a party. “My son” sold so many bags that he won some prizes and helped to earn a pizza party for his class.

I thought that would be the end of it.

I’m such a silly girl.

In June, I received an email from Kat telling me that the Large Utility Totes were on special for $10. Well, I clearly NEEDED a second LUT and I’m a sucker for a great deal. And in all honesty, I felt compelled by the Holy Spirit to connect with Kat so I could meet more people at my son’s school. So I signed up to do an online/catalog party.

Before I knew it, Kat was at my house dropping off the catalogs and supplies. Obviously, I didn’t think it through. If I had, I would have realized this endeavor would require talking to people. While she was here, I noticed the enrollment kit:

Ummm… it has a retail value of over $300 but only costs $99 and it has 3 of the bags I wanted to purchase anyway in the colors/prints I want. As a bargain shopper, that kit haunted me all month.

Poor Kat. Near the end of the month, I grilled her with a million questions. She told me that consultants make 25% of the party totals. What?!?! That’s unbelievable! And when my party went over $600 (that was an ONLINE party… I didn’t even show anyone the products in person), she agreed to split the part with me. I signed up.

Oh. My. Goodness! What did I do?????

And then someone asked to do an in-home party. Which I swore I wouldn’t do. EVER! I mean, I was fully intending to hide behind my computer and watch this thing fizzle away… But clearly God had something else in mind. (BTW, the party was a blast and I cannot wait to do another one.)

My family and I just went on our first real family vacation. And it was wonderful!! Why? Because my poor husband works 18+ hour days 5 days/week and 6-8 hours on Saturday. We own a small construction company and are desperately trying to get out of debt. We took a break for 10 whole days. And it was GLORIOUS!

What does this have to do with Thirty-One? Well, as a family, we agreed that we NEED to take a vacation EVERY year. And we NEED to get out of debt so we can buy a house that better suits our family. Our solution: Mommy is going to work Thirty-One and save the profits so we can go on vacations and have family time while Daddy keeps the construction company going.

And are you ready for the real kicker? Last year, I volunteered 2 days each week in my son’s class and intend to do the same this year. Because of that commitment along with doing the books for the construction company, I didn’t think I could help out with the PTO. Guess what Kat is? Besides being an awesome person and a great Thirty-One sponsor, she is the incoming president of the PTO. BAH! Are you dying? Cuz I thought I was going to when I heard that! Guess who’s going to be helping the PTO this year?

God is so funny! I love (and sometimes hate) how He sneaks up on you and gives you opportunities to grow when you least expect it. And I LOVE how He blesses you immensely when you follow His lead. 

How has He challenged you to be uncomfortable lately?

Saturday, February 9, 2013

Are you one of us?


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A friend of mine and I have been talking about how there seems to be a cloud of depression covering a lot of people we know… ourselves included. It’s not surprising considering the state of our world globally, nationally and locally. And personally, we have entered into the stage of life where death and looming death are prominent. Add to that, other difficult everyday situations and you’ve got a breeding ground for the blues. And guess who couldn’t be happier…

For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.” Ephesians 6:12

I mean really, is there a better way to win a spiritual battle than to make people question their sanity, to make them not be able to function and to make them question their worth? Oh. My. Goodness! GET BEHIND ME satan!

In our desperation, my friend and I decided to hold one another accountable in fighting against it. Here are some of the things we are going to attempt to do:

  • Cry out to Jesus in prayer throughout the day. I’m not talking about anything fancy here, folks. I literally mean, “Jesus, help me please!” We have to redirect our thoughts to God if we want to truly conquer this. And the only One who can actually fight this battle for us is Jesus. 
  • Stop making “To Do” lists and start making “I Got It Done” lists. We have to focus on the successes, NOT the failures.
  • Focus on the day’s blessings rather than ruminating on what’s wrong in our lives and the world.
  • Stop trying to fix anyone else. We have to focus on what God is trying to accomplish in us.

I’m sure there will be more, but that’s where I’m starting. And after a little bit of wrestling with God about it, I think I’m supposed to share those struggles and wins with you. So you can expect little posts about this battle I’m in. For example:

This morning, I got up, put on my makeup and fixed my hair. However, the thought of brushing my teeth was overwhelming. Gross, I know. Especially gross for someone who has some severe germ issues. Thankfully, I remembered my conversation with my friend yesterday. With that, I forged ahead and brushed my teeth. It sounds so ridiculous as I write this, but I literally had to convince myself to brush my teeth. Considering the spiritual battle we are fighting, it makes perfect sense. I mean, can you imagine how I would have beaten myself up all day if I hadn’t done it? I can.

Are you one of us? Are you fighting a cloud of depression? Do you want to join us in tackling the root of the problem? I hope you’ll join us as we battle “the spiritual forces of evil” and delight in our identity in Christ.

Monday, December 17, 2012

There ARE Options…




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My son has been extremely sick with the flu or flu-like illness since Friday. My daughter finished her antibiotics for strep on Friday only to have a slight fever and 24-hour stomach bug starting yesterday afternoon. Just when that seemed to be resolving itself, she spiked a high fever and is in bed with the flu. Apparently we are sampling all of the lovelies being passed around school. Awesome. Have I mentioned how much I loathe the numerous springs we have had this fall? BRING ON THE FREEZE ALREADY!!!!

Fevers freak me out. Especially ones that make my babies cry in pain. We are only at the beginning of what I’m guessing will be 48-72 hours of fever for my baby girl. (That’s how long it took for my son.)

Add to my freak-out the fact that it’s holiday party week at school… and I’m in charge of one party and have the party favors for the other one at my house. Hello OCD nightmare.

Of course, as I’m freaking out, I’m also beating myself of with guilt because at least we don’t live in Connecticut… my babies may be super-sick, but they are super-here. So I am desperately trying not to be desperate. I AM a problem-solver.  Now let’s solve the problem.

The solution: both kids are staying home tomorrow no matter what. No one wants us to give them this for Christmas. I’ve emailed the other room mom in my daughter’s class to see how I can get the goods to her. And on Wednesday, Pa will watch whichever sickies are quarantined to our house. Adam, my mom and I will go to my son’s school and throw a spectacular Holiday Party for his class. And if my son can’t be there, we will have another spectacular Holiday party at my house when we get home. Problems solved.

I’m telling you this to remind you that there ARE options. Even when things look bleak and aren’t turning out the way you planned, there are ways to make it work. Good thing I’ve been practicing being uncomfortable this year… now to work on not being so whiny ;)